So it the 2nd of April already, time really is flying by, thats is thanks to how hectic my work has become along with some mental shifts I have been doing. So yes I’m still doing really well at work and still love my job, but the reason for this blog post is since the 26th of January, I havent given an update with what or how my health is currently and thought I would give you all an update on how it currently stands.
So since the 26th January, where you found out that I had been going through alot with my diagnosis of PCOS and also from the 24th of Decemeber I havent been able to eat anything hot or anything which is of any actually nutritions to me, here how I currently stand.
I am now on 14 weeks of still not being able to eat anything hot or proper meal, I’m still on salads and cold foods, I have still been trying to eat something hot or warm but still have the same issue of throwing it back up, I have found I can have pasta and rice cold and some other sauces but I have to have a small quantity, as too much and I throw it up. So been back and forth from the doctor with this and 2 weeks ago I went and had a camera down my throat to see if they could find anything, well lets just say I never want to go through that again, that has been the most unpleasant thing I have ever had to go through. The results from that is everything is fine, nothing blocking or no problems from what they can see.
This is so frustrating but also good thing as well. I am back at the doctors this week to see what is the next on the chalk board. This has become very frustrating now, as my body is seriously fighting to keep going and due to my lack of diet I have alot of other side effects from losing weight, skin breaking out, my core temptature is all over the place and most of the time I am boiling hot and I notice I am brusing alot easier now, plus I only need to smell some food and I throw up. So I really am hoping they find out what is going on soon as I really don’t know how much longer I can take this.
Another thing I mention was that I have been put forward for exploratory surgery to see if they can find another cause for my pain I am in 24/7, well they think they know what it is but surgery will confirm it or not as what they think it is can take years to diagnoise. They think I may have Endometriosis or Endos for short, which if they believe it true could be causing me the struggle I am currently having with eating as the lining could be growing on my stomach, if they do confirm this I will have ongoing health issues and numerous amount of surgeries and will always be in pain, there is no cure for Endos, and worst case scenorio they may do a full hysterectomy but this will not cure it or take away from my pain. So as I say I am waiting for my surgery to confirm it but I may not get an asnwer even then as this diease is so hard to diagnoise. My surgery was meant to happen the 25th March and I was there all day where I waited and hadn’t eaten or drank anything just to be told it had been cancelled as they had ran out of time, so now have to wait for my appountment to come through, I came out of there not knowing if I wanted to scream or cry, as it had been the surgery I had been waiting for. The best way I can explain how I feel in the easiest way, it’s like i’m playing snakes and ladders and I just move a couple of places and then hit a ladder and fall back down. I just want answers!!!!
So yes I am still cosntantly in pain 24/7 and I deal with it the best I can with either strong pain meds, hot water bottles, boiling hot showers and baths, but no matter how rough I am feeling or how little sleep I have had I always get up and put a smile on my face as I am not letting this beat me, I will live my life to the best and full I can.
I’m also struggling with my skin currently as well, as like I said earlier with the lack of my diet it has broken out and where usually I can get it under control and clear it up, this time it has become very sore and is the worst it has ever been, so with my upcoming doctors appointment I will be asking to see if I can get some steroids to help clear it up as its just another thing which knock my confidence out of me, but hopefully it will clear up with the help of steroids.
So yes my health sucks and looks like it will do for the rest of my life. But this doesn’t stop me I have my way to deal with it and I have plenty of support around me who are there for me on my good and bad days. This will not control me I will fight this with everything I have.
I will keep you all up to date with what happens with my health.
I just want to say thank you to all of you as well as you have all been very supportive as well, and that means alot to me as well.